If you are an artist then you know the importance of new work. Developing new winning designs is a way to not only generate renewed interest in your brand, but it serves an integral effect of helping to keep you creatively vital. I know that for me I get a big bump behind developing new work that helps to push production for a while. I feel better. Life just FEELS better to me and my mind is working in a much more fertile way as I wonder just what might be next on the creativity front. Its as if the world moves from few options to one where options are just bursting at the seams. Such is the effect that inspiration has on us.
The last four years have brought unprecedented change to my life. From a severe shoulder injury, to a divorce, to managing an eight-entity partnership to being without a home and without income. Being instantly disabled was no fun. The doctor explained I would not do anything except therapy with my shoulder for an entire year. The combination of pain killers and discomfort and my inability to work was like a depth charge in my world. It shook my confidence, it took me back to square one, and it also gave me a solid period of introspection into WHY I was doing what I was doing and caused me to step back and look—really look—at the who when where and why’s of all of this.. When the tree was shaken in this way I had to look long and hard and honestly at WHY I was motivated to do the things I was doing. Why was I running a business in production glass? It isn’t as simple an answer as you might at first expect. Having a marriage break up during this time was itself a double-whammy and was made much more difficult by a spouse who sought to put children in the middle of it all while also limiting my exposure to them. The economy was in the doldrums and I had few options available to me as I recovered just enough to wind up in another pot of soup. And in the midst of all of this very terrible stuff was a center of clarity and purpose…..and even design. I don’t believe in destiny. I believe we create much of this. A life can have a design that often escapes our notice but emerges in times when we allow ourselves to grow quiet. If you step back and look at our culture and world as a whole, we really aren’t known as the species that quiets itself. What we take as quieting the mind is akin to a brief distraction from the normal rush of inner dialog that goes along with our days. You just never realize just how much you do it until you are suddenly without it. Boom. The sound goes off. The lights go out. You are suddenly suspended within a deep blue buoyant ocean of a place. What happens to you in places such as these? In sensory deprivation tanks the mind is known to feed information out of itself for its own consumption just in order to keep the information loop it is so used to having supplied to it, going. We never realize any of this until something comes along to put the brakes on things. Its relative, so breaking the frame of reference just a little does a lot to begin to shift awareness, feeling, and being.
So, putting away the violins for a minute, I want to say that one of the few things that has helped me get through this period has been the ability to create. During this time period I have had some of the biggest outputs of writing in my life. I amassed a 700 page manuscript for a book, wrote several children’s stories and began developing new work and classes for my studio business. I have written music, poetry, maintained up to three blogs and wrote an article for an online magazine on the subject of nonduality. I was asked to teach at two colleges locally. Now I teach at just one. Part time and perfect. It keeps me in the mix with young minds that want to be involved in new and different projects in a collaborative way, much as was done this past semester with my sculpture students in making blown glass sculptural forms for the Glass Garden project that I wrote about a few posts down the line.
Being able to have friends who serve as inspirational source-points can be incredibly important for turning the boat in your life around. I know that for me, the creative was the one force that made the difference between madness and great joy. It wasn’t a crutch; it was a means for changing how I thought, how I felt and how I reacted to the world around me. A curious thing happens in the brain when we choose to feel differently; we do! Our bodies stop pumping out things like adrenaline, which is a stress chemical and begins to pump out things like endorphins, dopamine, and other feel-good compounds. The body is actually a loyal servant to our own minds and feelings and will most often mirror our thinking and feeling state as precisely as it can chemically. If you care to know just how fast this change can take place, observe as you allow your feelings to shift from one mood to the next. Our bodies can shift on a dime for us if we realize that it is we who control the boat and where its sailing! Too often, though, we wind up being mastered by our feelings, and this can put people into quite dismal places indeed. At the end of the day, though, until you understand that YOU are in control of all of this, even your own so very crazy emotions (that feel out of your control), you wont develop the sense of personal responsibility and self mastery that is necessary to have the confidence to take charge of your interior life and put it into a more positive direction.
So art and creativity was a powerful way through all of this for me. This was good, too, because I like simple and nondogmatic. I happen to believe or feel that all of this here was not meant to be difficult but can actually be amazingly simple. Like falling off a log. Instead, though, we often set up barriers to our success. I know I have. Lots of them. Why? it all comes down to self love. Not selfish narcisism, but rather a reverence for your own self as a gateway to worlds of wonder and boundless joy and love. We tend to mess it up somehow, self-sabotaging most often. Somewhere along the line we begin to feel that we aren’t good enough. We are then on the lookout for any suggestion that we aren’t. Our minds actually are on the lookout for ANYTHING that matches this pattern turning in our minds or hearts. The thing about these patterns is that they are like plants; they will continue to self-propogate and can wind up getting worse. You can also in that moment choose to go in the other direction and actively change the pattern into something different. You can literally change your mind. You can change how it operates, how it responds, how it chooses from a list of behaviors. One of the most powerful ways to change these negative patterns is through creativity. By being creative, you are granting yourself permission to be happy and to enjoy what it is you are doing as well as to begin to consider not just new ideas but also allowing yourself to enjoy something that you may have felt edgy or uncertain about (because maybe you felt like you just weren’t GOOD enough at it) for some time now. Sitting down with a guitar and playing music alone might at first seem like a lonely thing to do, but it can also be an incredibly nurturing thing too. Giving yourself the freedom to dream wildly and creatively is another way of honoring your own insides. It can be a game changer, it really can. We now know that the very substance of our brains actually undergoes change as we begin to rewire the brain by developing different thought and feeling patterns. We can see how different parts of the brain begin to light up when we move away from anxiety and uncertainty and allow ourselves to play and have fun. Play and fun are not mere idle activities; they are the very substance of what gives us long lives, healthy hearts, bodies and minds, and productive relationships. When we are happy, when we are engaged, everything moves so much more smoothly.
As a result of all of this I remind myself that I need to stop what I am doing periodically and design new work. Already I have begun some very different things. Who knows if they will be of any interest. When it comes to developing new work you do what you like and what winds up selling helps to support the business and more innovation. Its not unlike a publishing company or movie producer that has blockbusters that help subsidize the less successful but just as worthy lesser known movies or books. I can remember making some of the ugliest suncatchers ever. They were an experiment that went wrong. I took them to a show and placed them in a basket on the floor. They were the first things to sell and were gone within the first hour of the show. So there is no way to gauge popularity; do what you like, make what you love and leave the rest to the fates. Really. If this is about pleasing other people, you are going to spend many sleepless hours trying to do just that when the only thing that ever made any sense or works is pleasing yourself. I know maybe that sounds self centered, but you know, I have noticed that when I am happy, those around me feel that happiness and respond to it. If I am not right then those around me are most certainly affected. Instead of seeking to fill your cup from others, fill it yourself so that you are overflowing. If we each did this we would each be in a lot better shape emotionally, and socially as a species.
This year I have embarked on some very divergent ideas creatively. I wanted to do fish for my home. I made some out of ceramic. I wanted a garden because of how being amidst living things make me feel. Last week I had a hummingbird buzz around my head as I stood stock still watching it move through the garden. Bees and butterflies by the dozen are zooming in and out of this garden and it just lights me up to watch. It lights me up to watch people enjoy making art, enjoying what they are doing. I am making new work in glass, more different than anything I have ever done and yet its also some of the most satisfying so far. I am breaking away from the vessel more and pushing blown forms into sculpture. I am beginning to make water fountains; this was something I had NEVER considered but once I saw the results of what I and my students had created, I was hooked. I wanted one in my yard, too. I wanted TWO. One in the front, one in the back yard! Here is glass and color and water all in one place creating sound and movement. Maybe its not highbrow, but I am a simple man. Sometimes the sublime speaks to us through the ray of light peeking through the trees, or in the particular pthalo green we have on our pallet for the day. In each moment, tucked between the obvious and the esoteric there is something and it is waiting quietly for us to recognize it. When we do, it doesn’t require grandiose visions. Its as simple as a smile, as grand as a waterfall. It is in both, and it waits for all of us. The gateway is in allowing ourselves, which is so very much like what making great art and invention is all about.